I feel hollow

"A person doesn't die when he should but when he can."

Gabriel Garcia Marquez

 

18.04.2014 by seven p.m. there may be cars riding and eggs boiling, but I hear nothing but the rush of my own blood as it pumps through my chest. I struggle to think about how I feel. It's so difficult to verbalize my feelings, yeahh the person I have never met before died- and so what - you could ask me. But I feel like Marquez was my soulmate, like he was the only one to understand me, the very person that describes my six emotions by using his millions words. And now I feel like I should send him this words quickly, before I swallow them down, before I turn them into one of those six emotions.

Thank you for your books, for all works you have done, for every single word you have written. Thank you for filling my heart. You were one of the greatest writer I have ever read. 

May your soul rest in peace.

Dear April

Don't forget to be awsome!

girls talk

After 4 days of her reign ergo 4 days of rain I've decided to talk with here in person. Here is my conversation with Miss Spring:

I stared at her for a second - her skin was glowing and her hair was perfect. 'Spring' I started. 'Do you have something to tell me?'
She blinked quickly. "No' sshe answered.
'Um, look, I think you are not playing nice with us..."
'Oh my world, people' Spring said 'I'm out of ideas on how to please you'
'Be yourself' I said
She groaned. 'I've tried that but late-winter was more spring-ish than I am in your opinion'
I rolled my eyes ' I like winter although I prefer spring, everyone prefer spring!!! Listen, I just read a study in the Internet'  I said ' It was a survey about what people find most attractive in spring. Do you happen to know what was the number one thing?'
'umm, I guess'
'You shouldn't guess, you are supposed to know that!! It was of course the first rise of sun!!!!!
"Right' she whispered. ' But you, retarded humans don't understand that Spring has to be kind of unpredictable'.
'Try to be more like predictable, then!' I said
'More like predictable?' she echoed, looking at me. 'Spring is not only about sun, love and flowers, is also about rainy days, i-don't-want-to-go-out days and waiting for summer' She sounded sad.
Later on we talked about what her plan for preceding days was, I asked her of course whether she was planning to give us some sun or not. And guess what she said!!! She answered that yes and that she would be more spring-ish in the literal sens of the word! ;-DD